For decades, like so many of us, I built the ‘perfect’ image. I hid from the world what was troubling my heart – I hid me. I thought others might like me ‘less’ if they knew what had happened to me. I moved inside my head. I locked myself in an intellectual armour that let no one close to my heart … not even me.
I didn’t realize it at the time but I felt I had to prove that I had the right to exist. I chased diplomas and certifications, I got married, I had three children, and I built the white picket fence… but I still felt empty. I kept wondering what was wrong with me since I had it ‘all’. What it took me too long to realize was, I had nothing to prove to anyone! All I had to do was find a way to be loving towards myself (easier said than done!) I couldn’t do that because, like I said earlier, I had locked my heart away, even from myself.
Come with me, and I’ll share more of my personal story…